Miserable

I am just totally miserable in my life right now. I am missing someone very, very close to heart. I wont be seein him for a long time, but when I do it will be right this time. Am I ready for that? part of me says fuck no! The other part of me knows I cant live without him. Although I feel closer to him now than in the past year, due to our last encounter. I have missed him so....and the time has finally has come that he misses me equally. I know that without question. I feel and know it in my heart to be 100 percent true. Thank the good lord above for that.